having one of those executive function days where everything is too many steps
by which i mean, like, here's how my brain parses the steps in making coffee
good day:
- make coffee
regular day:
- put water in coffee maker
- put coffee in coffee maker
- turn on coffee maker
bad day:
- take pot from coffee maker
- turn on sink
- fill up coffee pot
- turn off sink
- pour water into coffee maker
- put coffee pot in coffee maker
- open cupboard
- get coffee filter from cupboard
- get coffee beans from cupboard
- put filter in coffee pot
- measure coffee
- pour coffee into filter
- close coffee maker
- turn coffee maker on
anyway this is a "14 steps to make coffee" kind of day
This is actually a really good way of explaining this
its so crazay how being in a transitional period will have you obsessively reevaluating every decision in yr life to the point of actual insanity…hello
“I could not stop wasting time. It was crazy. I wanted to do something with my life, but instead I went to sleep, or sung in the shower, or sat and stared at the wall. I couldn’t even tell you about anything that I saw. I didn’t talk to anybody. The cicadas kept dying outside, and as I dreamed, my mouth grew thick and venomous with silence.” (Yiwei Chai)








